Alone but not lonely

I was having dinner by myself on Subway last night when I spotted this one girl also eating alone by herself. She was there before I started my meal, and when I left, she’s still there playing with her iphone. Well I was kinda curious how come she stand sitting there alone by herself for more than one hour (cause I”ve been there for like an hour too). As for me, I don’t really enjoy sitting in a public area alone for more than an hour without any purpose.

It’s an inevitable fact that sometimes, we need to be alone by ourselves. Alone is a fact that you have to do things by yourselves. But please don’t confuse the word “alone” with “lonely”. Lonely is a feeling that you are alone in this world with nobody could care and understand about you. I give you an example, you are on dinner with few of your colleagues, you are physically there but you cannot enjoy your surrounding, you’re mind are wandering into so many different places.

Alone is what I mostly do in here in Singapore such as eating out alone. Though it’s very common to see in here that people are eating alone on the kopitiam or restaurant, but still, I think most of us could use some company. But in the end, if there’s no one to accompany us, what do we do? Not eating because of the fear of the look on people when they saw you eating alone? Hahaha. Come on, if I’ve had done that, I would be a model by now. I’ll be skinny from the unnecessary fear of eating out alone.

I also want to point out that it is also very common for us who used to be alone most of the time to feel lonely. My key to avoid this “lonely” feeling is to bring books, play with your phones or whatsoever. Just don’t let your mind telling you that you are lonely. Also always try to talk to somebody about how you’re doing these days to somebody, through phones, letters, email and whatsoever. It does make a difference. You might be alone, but trust me, there’s always someone out there who would care for you and think about you at this very moment J

Adam and Eve

Dear God, 

If I haven’t opened my eyes to see the man who’s about to be my soul mate please open my eyes. But God, there’s this man and woman who I think should be together. I think I’ll prefer You to open their eyes to each other first than me finding my soul mate. I’m sacrificing my personal benefit for their goods. I can see that they are suitable for each other. Please hear my selfless prayer. Thank you God, Amen.

You might think that I was joking around writing my prayer up there. Hahaha. Well of course some of the part was being exaggerated by me (if you know me well enough, you’d know which part). My point is there’s this two people who I think should be together. They both would be cute to be together. When it comes to love, you see it when you see it, but then again, of course, we can only see and hope that they could be together. *sigh*

I cannot write too much about this, because the more that I wrote about it, the more revealing I will be regarding who are those two person. I would like to keep that confidential (unless you’re asking me personally). I believe that some of you already know who these people I’m talking about are. *wink*

I believe that God create an even partner for all of us. Like Eve, created from Adam’s rib. You can see a spoiled wealthy boy marrying another disgustingly rich irresponsible girl. Same goes with a hardworking man marrying a supportive lady to help them both having a better future. I believe that couples were meant to be together. As for a story about a young rich man marrying a very poor girl, I can say that the possibility for it to be real is so little, but yes, nothing is impossible. It still can happen, just by the slightest chance.

In the end, I can only say, let Your plan happen, not mine. Forgive me for forcing my will to be Yours. But God, will You at least consider my selfless thoughts above? :)

School Is (Still) Cool

These past few days I’ve been thinking about the times when I was in school. I couldn’t help to think that, life is much fair when you were in school. They simply grade you based on what you did. Less politic involved. It is purely based on your effort during that exam. Less ass kissing somebody or back stabbing someone (haha I know it sounded harsh).

All of these times when we were in school, did our teacher teach us enough to face this cruel world? My personal opinion is: No, it’s not enough. It will never be enough. The life itself is a continuous journey. A lot of unexpected things could happen just in a snap of finger. Life will teach you more than you can get in school, but it never hurts to feed your soul with great educations. So you are considered lucky to be able to receive a good education.

Then all of sudden, the memories of teachers I had in school keep coming one by one. The most memorable one would be my 5th and 6th grade teacher who told us to write everyday. I couldn’t remember what exactly has she told us, but the point where she said that “writing is good for you”, I can relate to that. Writing soothes me (hahaha), it’s a media to express myself. It’s amazing on how one teacher’s word were planted on my brain and leads me to keep writing until today.

I shared my opinions with some friends about the how happy we were when school and exams were the only things that matter to us. Most of them are agree with me, but they also mention one important point: being a student cannot earn you money. Well.. some student do manage to earn money while studying, as for me, I positively believe that I will have a negative income per month for almost one year during my plan to study in China. But I also believe that you need to have focus on what you’re doing to get the maximal output. So in this time, let me focus on my study first.

Sooo…… this is my way of saying: Let me spend my saving for my study (and holiday) in China. Hahaha. No lah.. I’m being serious when I decided to go back to school. I will cherish every precious moments in school knowing that after school, I need to come back to work (and it’s aint as fun as school). So for all the kids who’d wish that they can quit school, trust me kid: there’s time for everything. Right now you can only grumble when your teacher telling you this and that, but it pays off one day. You’re gonna know how cool it is to stay in school.